Offered a new job, which I would like to take.

Weekend off. Restful shabbos, slept a lot, went to U of D Agriculture exposition, great disappointment. Hope to be sort of productive today.

Waiting for my last patient, then off to three hospitals. I'm falling behind on paper work as I schedule more office patients but the enhanced exam room activity has kept me more engaged in what I am doing. I am more cheerful, a touch less cynical and definitely in a better disposition at the start of each day.

Quiet and reasonably productive Sunday. Put away clothing, tidied bedroom, started garden and still had some me time to watch Shalom TV. Irene off at her 40th Girls High Class reunion. Alan here for weekend but spent most of his time here on computer.

I am making a concerted effort to be more cheerful, or at least to look more cheerful.

End of the work week. I'm kinda tired, not at all enthused but catching up on stuff in the office and using my time a little better than I have been doing of late. I got my headlight replaced after procrastinating it a couple of weeks. I went to Patel's Indian grocery for the first time today, impressed by the collection though hardly anything has a hecksher. I bought a paneer combo that did, same price as at Trader Joe's.

Not much has gone especially well of late.

A lull from the hospital but a full office schedule, which suits my current disposition reasonably well. I woke at 4AM but did not loll in bed. Instead, I went downstairs and watched something on TV until 5, finished most of the fleishig dishes, then rested. Went to office a little early to put together my quarterly tax data, but could not find my February bank statement. Paid a few bills. Starbucks gave a free travel mug of coffee this morning so I took an insulated tumbler there, nursing the rather strong brew for about two hours.

Real work day about to start.

I feel pretty good today but a little anxious that my best job prospect has not contacted me thus far. I definitely gave it my best shot but may have to move on next week.

Without having to go to the hospital, I've started getting the office under a little better control. I seem reasonably busy and challenged by the stuff that comes my way. My disposition is a little better, having had a few days off during pesach. I submitted a letter to the annals and started writing my delaware voice on auto safety. I seem a little more patient than I had been though I would feel a lot more secure if a job offer were to come through.

another birthday has come and gone, this time a quiet one with few birthday wishes outside my family. quiet day for me medically, last hospital patient went home, fewer than usual in the office, a portent of the end of practice that i have been anticipating.

i am a little anxious about the future, not confident. my level of enthusiasm and motivation to do things remains at an ebb. physically i feel well, just a few aches and pains, maybe some sleep disturbance that has greatly improved since last fall.

it is not total anhedonia, however. i went to beth tfiloh last shabbat and enjoyed shabbat morning there as i usually do, even though rabbi wohlberg ceded his time to ruth messinger of the american jewish world service that sponsored rozzy's summer in kenya. i'll just have to seek out a greater measure of pleasurable activities.