I'm a little tired, having slept poorly, and not especially eager to do useful work today. I made an effort to go to grand rounds on diabetes from a jhu prof. it was quite well done though neither my heart nor head were into it.

There is probably an idealized version of me to be better delineated, one who arises at 5:30, retires at 11:00, exercises regularly, eats properly, takes his prescribed medicine each day, tackles the day's agenda without either getting emotionally involved or trying to escape what I really do not especially want to do. The idealized me is energetic, he looks good, he's funny and he's smart. He gets recognition, he is worth more than they pay him, he has friends.